Attention-Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder

If you were the one

2012-01-27T22:00:00.000+08:00

This afternoon, went to PJ state town to do some stuff with le cousin. Ended up the place is not open, so we went to IKEA after that to send them off.

Outfit of the day

Turquoise tank top from Forever21.

'Love doesn't learn' white crop top from Cotton On.

Acidwash Leigh jeans from Topshop.

At night, I went to Vertigo with some friends. Met a lot of other group of friends there by accident. Had fun I guess? But it was a Friday night, so it was super packed. Can't even dance properly on the dance floor. Bianco was pretty empty as usual compared to Nero. Conclusion, it was a fairly fun night out. :D

Outfit of the night

'Love doesn't learn' white crop top from Cotton On.

Electric blue bodycon skirt from Blogshop.

Take take take

2012-01-27T21:12:00.000+08:00

My cousin's family from Penang came over, so I haven't got the time to blog, have been spending time with them instead. I don't see them very often, the last time I saw my cousin was... 3-4 years ago if I'm not mistaken. Yeah, about there.

So, on Wednesday, 3rd day of Chinese New Year they came over. They reached Damansara early in the morning. I had to peel myself off my bed, well, cause I'm obviously not a morning type of person. Everyone knows that. Had to drive to IKEA to meet them then convoy back to my area. We had Papparich for breakfast.

Outfit of the day.

Crop top from Topshop.

Highwaisted denim from Kitschen.

No picture of ze face for that day cause I didn't have any make up on, and apparently I don't look presentable enough without make up. Apparently. After breakfast, went to One Utama to walk around with my aunt and cousin sister. Chilled at Starbucks before we came home for dinner. Took her out after dinner to Al-Safa, Bandar Utama to meet up with some of my friends. Just for fun you know.

The next day I had work, noon shift. So the plan was after work we will just chill at home and girl talk, pillow talk and whatsoever talk.

Outfit of the day to work.

Crop top from Topshop.

Acidwash Leigh jeans from Topshop.

Maybe

2012-01-25T01:18:00.001+08:00

Of course, I must start the post with another yet self-conscious picture of myself.

Finally found my way to make up. Yes I have been a make up fail for, well, the previous 18 years of my life. Make up only means, eyeliner, fail mascara and coloured-lipbalm. Afraid not! I have achieved slight success of my make up skills. Let the little girl have her fun alright, do not pop my bubble.

Outfit of the day.

'Electric' necklace from Forever21.

Black and white button top from Cotton On.

Bright pink bodycon skirt from Blogshop.

Had a family reunion dinner today with the rest of the aunts and cousin. The house was definitely merrier and really loud I would say. My poor dog was confused of who should he go to, it was hilarious. The dog, Max Brown Lee aka Brownie has brought a lot of joy to my family. Sometimes, when we don't have much things to talk about, he is the topic. Well, he kind of is one of the things that we like to talk about. My intelligent and naughty puppy. (:

The family is getting smaller as one by one of my cousins have left to study abroad. Yet another cousin is leaving soon in February. I'll be the only grandchild left in Malaysia. I don't think that I'd be going anywhere else in the next 4 years perhaps? Or maybe even till when I finish studying. Tomorrow as I've mentioned, my dad's cousin's family is coming over to stay at my place, so I'd have to guide them to my place with my aunt tomorrow morning. Joy of getting up early on my off day. Le sigh. At least I get to doll up! And actually leave my house this time.

Signing off,

xoxo.

Red and purple lipstick all over the page

2012-01-24T00:41:00.002+08:00

Do you really want,
Do you really want me?
Do you really want me dead,
Or alive to torture for my sins?

Do you really want,
Do you really want me?
Do you really want me dead,
Or alive to live a life?

I should probably go to bed soon, I've got work at 11pm tomorrow, till 8pm that is. Then rush back to join my relatives for a get together. I've got Wednesdays off, plus my dad's cousin and family from Penang is coming over on Wednesday till Friday. They're staying over at my place. So I've some sort drafted out my schedule of my life after I stop work. It shall be 2 months of fun and late nights then back to my stressful degree life. Hopefully there'll be some new interesting people in degree then.

Mystic Dragon

2012-01-23T19:19:00.002+08:00

New profile picture for Facebook.

Just one of those self-conscious pictures of myself.

Outfit of the day.

Multi-coloured crop top from Topshop;

Acid wash Leigh jeans from Topshop.

Finally got the chance to doll up and it's not for work. After lunch, went to the temple at Brickfields with le family for some prayers. Brought le dog, Max Brown along as well but he was just in the car with my dad. Not that we can't bring dogs to a temple, I mean, they're living beings too right? It started raining when we reached home, watched a little bit of tv and dossed off.

Here I am now?

I know you're sorry

2012-01-23T01:41:00.001+08:00

The day before Chinese New Year.

My cousin from Australia came over to visit a few days earlier because he's going back to Aussie soon. Of course, the house was really loud with three ladies gossiping and talking. Oh, trust me, I'm not included.

Some updates about my life of 2012 so far:
1. Started work at Topshop, One Utama after Christmas last year. Resigning soon, should be stopping by early February.
2. Hopefully going for a job/vacation with some friends at Pangkor on 15-17 February.
3. Training hard with Cheer Aces. We should be, SHOULD, be going to the competition in Singapore and of course other competitions in Malaysia.
4. Got my results and enrolled back in Taylor's for my degree programme which starts only in April, meaning I've got about 2 months left to partay!
5. If you've realized, I kind of revamped my blog for a fresh new year. No expectations, no regrets, just pure adventure. Let's see where does 2012 take us this year. (:

My plans so far for tomorrow is temple in the morning with my family, then lunch and dinner at home. Other than that, I should be available for some fun. (; Jokes, jokes. Just painted my nails red myself. Took longer than expected but it was worth it. I guess. I still can't decide what to wear tomorrow to the temple. Yeah, I know you might be thinking, it's just the temple. However! You have to consider the fact that I'm also a normal girl that likes to doll up and apparently my aunt is saying "What if you find your other half at the temple?" Haha.

Boy, you really got me bad.

2012-01-23T01:28:00.002+08:00

First post of 2012.

Chinese New Year is exceptionally early this year. The first post shall be a haul about my Chinese New Year shopping. In total I spent quite a lot, but, half of it is from my own savings. So, I'm sorry, you can't call me a spoil brat this time.

2 pair of jeans

2 dresses

5 crop tops

3 tops

A scarf

A pair of shorts

A bag and a necklace

I don't have a picture of my Toy Story jumper and lingerie. Well of course. These are the stuff I bought, in total I spent about 1.4k. There are still some stuff that I want to get, which are in my wishlist, with my budget for shopping and the rest I'll get it when I get my pay. Oh yes, if you don't know, I'm working at Topshop, One Utama. Do come visit, I'll most probably be there when you come over.

Why do they tell us how to feel

2011-12-03T10:30:00.000+08:00

My sem is finally coming to an end. Foundation will be finally done.

Quite a number has dropped out or switched course.

I guess next year in the degree intake there'll be some new exciting people!

I'm left with 7 more assignments/projects/exam. My last day is on the 19th.

Then, the X-Men is heading on over to party in Penang! 1, 2, woot woot. :P

We'll be back by the 23rd then Rejaie's wedding on Christmas Eve.

Not too sure about my Christmas plans this year yet, but it'll always be fun.

Not forgetting, I'm starting work on the 27th at Topshop, One Utama.

Yes, gimme 'em cash. Jokes jokes, it's for experience and my future portfolio.

Let's see what are my plans for these coming 2 weeks:
1. Going to Vertigo tonight with a bunch. Haven't seen them in a bit since everyone's so busy with their exams and assignments. Missed you guys (': I know that it'll be fun tonight.
2. Finishing my english group research by today!
3. Should be heading down to Movida with Leysha and her coursemates tomorrow night. No, I don't do this all the time everyday, just once in awhile and coincidentally it's back to back this time.
4. More assignments due next week.
5. Should I go for Tiesto on the 10th? Strictly no muslim allowed, so the rest are not going. Aih, decisions, decisions.
6. Then the most exciting week of December, my business charity event in Taylor's Lakeside. I'm praying that it'll be a huge success! Everything is going smoothly so far, so do come for my event, check us out on facebook "STEP UP! For Charity Talent Show"on the 16th Dec.
7. Day after the event we gotta celebrate! Not only birthdays, but the mark of the beautiful end to our foundation course.

Arch

2011-11-19T04:54:00.001+08:00

I shall blog about my uni trip to Singapore tomorrow!

About how awesome it is and of course, with some pictures.

Oh and! My groupmates and I are organizing a charity talent show;

This is a charity talent show organized by Taylor's University Lakeside Campus, School of Architecture, Building and Design (SABD), Foundation in Natural and Built Environment (FNBE), Semester 2 students for our Introduction to Business final project. We will be donating all the proceeds to the National Kidney Foundation Malaysia.

STEP UP! For Charity
Venue: LT20, Taylor's University Lakeside Campus
Date: 16th December 2011 (Friday)
Time: 7:00 - 10:30pm
Ticket Price: RM15

Social Media Partner: Advertlets
Facebook: http://www.facebook.com/advertlets
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http://www.advertlets.com/

We are looking for participants age 17 and above with talent of ANY kind in the form of a group or individual. The winners will be judged 100% by fan voting system. Votes will be collected by the audience attending the event only. The participants of the talent show will be exempted from the RM15 entrance fees.

Prizes:
Champion: RM500
1st Runner Up: RM300
2nd Runner Up: RM100
Consolation Prizes X 2: RM50

C for CHARITY. You must make the CHOICE to take the CHANCE if u want to make a CHANGE.

If you are interested to take part, you can pm the admins of the event your name, age, group or indvidual, act, contact number.

Check out the facebook event page! http://www.facebook.com/events/290718387626165/

Burlesque

2011-11-19T04:46:00.001+08:00

Had a burlesque performance recently with a bunch of amazing girls,

I had loads of fun! Here are some pictures, XOXO

Who says

2011-11-07T03:56:00.002+08:00

I don't know why do I still care after all these time.
I've spent a great amount of time believing that I've moved on.
But, I guess in the end, I might be just lying to myself.
It's not too bad of a thing, cause I actually stopped thinking about you.
Well, most of the time that is, and on rare occassions that I do.
I still want to be noticed by you, to impress you, and most of all,
Let you realize that it was a big mistake of letting me go. I want you to know that.
For that, I have to be strong, a confident and strong girl that you fell in love with.
Or, that's what I think and you portrayed to have happened. It might be true.

Who knows right? So, here I am, trying to be who you loved.
Not to get you back, just to prove my point I guess, somewhat.
For the next guy that comes along, he'll be a very lucky guy, I'm sure.
So much that I've learnt of holding back, and through the mistakes that I've done,
At least I'm pretty confident I won't screw it up as much as before. That's for sure.
I don't promise flawless relationship, but, I won't repeat my mistakes again.
I mean, who wants to be miserable from a mistake they've done over and over again right?

Say that you love me

2011-11-05T01:25:00.000+08:00

Sometimes, when I think about all the good times we've had, all the hugs and kisses, all the fun we had, making jokes and teasing each other, all the smiles,
I really miss you. I want you back in my life so much, just to hold you, I'd be happy.

But then again, when I think about how bad you made me feel, how disappointed we both were, and just all the pain that the relationship caused me,
I realize that it's the best for us to end it. We're better off without each other, or with someone else.

Shuffle

2011-11-05T01:17:00.001+08:00

So, haven't been blogging in awhile. Not really cause I'm busy, it's just, cause.
Didn't really have the mood, and also the fact that my life is boring. Haha.

Updates: (In no particular order)
1. Partied last friday with a bunch of friends. Had loads of fun. Even though the place was freagging packed, made us so sweaty, but the music was still good and definitely the crowd that I went with! :D

2. Been back for cheer practice with Cheer Aces All Star! A whole new team, loads of fun and also tiring. Sore muscles. ): Still worth it for a nice body in the end.

3. College assignments. Been staying up for a monster. Now we're in for all final projects except for Social Psychology class. We're all going for a class trip to Singapore next weekend. Woot woot!

4. I've got a dog! His name is Max Brown, we call him Brownie most of the time, but sometimes I call him Max. Wanted to name him Bacon, Kevin Bacon, but grandma said no, can't name him after a kind of food.

5. Went to Penang last weekend for a relative's funeral.

6. I don't think I've got anymore updates. That's why I said that I'm boring. My life is boring, especially nowadays. College, sleep, dinner, homework/yumcha/cheer, then sleep. Process repeats. I need something more interesting!

2011-10-03T23:34:00.000+08:00

How long do you think I will last? I'm going to avoid all of the following:

Fast food
Carbonated drinks
Chatime & Snowflakes
Starbucks & Coffee Bean
Late dinner & supper
Late nights

It was you

2011-10-03T14:30:00.001+08:00

I think my everyday lifestyle now involves:

College
Doing my college work
Work out
On the internet
Out with friends

Which is not too bad I guess, at least I'm doing my work AND enjoying life. :D

Closer to the edge

2011-09-30T09:36:00.002+08:00

It's the moment of truth and the moment to lie,
The moment to live and the moment to die,
The moment to fight, the moment to fight.

1. College: Still very much the same since I updated I would say. Except for, the school trips are all off due to some reason. So we'd have to stick with somewhere in Malaysia, hopefully somewhere out of KL that is. *cross fingers* Sometimes things are such a blur to me, well, I'd rather spend time with my music than hear your stupid conversations. (:

2. Gadgets: Been having a relationship with my headphones. :P (If you get what I mean that is. We're practically inseparable.) I'm considering in getting an ipod. Really. But we'll see, phone first definitely.

7 days without you

2011-09-29T16:40:00.000+08:00

I jokingly told him that when I was younger, I always wanted a set of stickers with my name printed on it. My other classmates would have it and I'm always jealous of them. One day, after a day out, he told me about his day the other day when he went to get something. In the end, he took out a set of those stickers with my name and penguin at the side.

He said, " You don't have to stick this all over me because, I'm already.. yours?"

Where is that guy that I was so amazingly fond of. The guy that made me fall head over heels. The guy that I would try to reply even though I'm already very tired. The guy that reads my blog all the time. The guy that listens to my playlist because I love those songs. The guy that will send me home and kiss me on the forehead before he leaves. The guy that told me I'm different, I'm not heartless and that he loves me. All those nice things he said ended with,

"I gave up already. I just don't have anymore feelings for you. I'm sick and tired of everything. I just want to be single for awhile."

That really broke my heart. I just don't have anymore feelings for you. A relationship of 5 months, and just like that, gone? Wow, that's just a little bit hard on me I think. Now, after 24 days of our end, I'm staring at the sticker he got for me on my phone. It's slowly peeling off at the edges.

I still love him and miss him. I do understand that it's best for us to not get together again, I do, really. I'm not living in denial anymore, not trying to get his attention thinking that he will fall in love with me again. No. I'm good with being friends, play it casual. I may still have feelings for him, but I do know that it does us both no good being together, it causes too much hurt for both of us. I didn't think that he was the one, but it was nice having someone that cares for you and to care for.

Yes, I admit that I've done mistakes that I wish I could take back, but well that's life. We can't take it back, but we sure can learn from it. Learn to appreciate, that's a note to myself. Don't take someone for granted because you think that he will still keep coming back. Until the point that he stops trying. That's when you realize. I admit that a tiny part of me still wants us to get back together, but I've reasoned over it and best not to.

There are many other beautiful things in life to ponder on. (:

But I've got to try

2011-09-27T13:12:00.002+08:00

When everything else fails, I'd normally still have you.

But this time, free falling, baby.
Sometimes, wait, most of the time, I just feel like I don't belong here.
I don't fit in anywhere around here,
It's like I have been fitting in because I try to fit in, I strive.
I bend around trying to fit in, but when you bend too much, you break.
Being something I'm not, being someone that people would want to have around.
I'm different. I have fall outs. I'm only human.

What now.

I'm sitting around, staring at these walls, wondering did you even care.

xx

2011-09-25T18:07:00.004+08:00

If only you felt this way about me, cause I'll always fell this way about you.

I'm sick and tired of YOU

2011-09-21T00:43:00.001+08:00

1. Had a great night, good laughs and dinner with people who shall not be named. We joked around, bully other people and just continue making stupid and dirty jokes. Which was extremely fun actually. Ahh, loads of good laughs, good for me. (:

2. Projects are mostly all passed up by this week. One is due this Thursday and the other one just started and due in a month or so's time. Other than that, college is just fine I guess.

3. Most probably going Mist on Thursday night, have some real fun, then Arthur's Day on Friday night. Woot! 2 nights in the row baby, (Disclaimer: No, I'm not a party animal.) Haha. With the sister and her friends I suppose. Hopefully meeting up with some friends at Arthur's, the more the merrier right!

4. I've been back for cheer practice, not that dusty, but definitely not as flexible and stamina wise... haha, I'll just die. Soon! I'll be back on track, been working out too! (Secretly cause I just bought 2 beautiful long dresses in hope for a formal night end of this year or something. So gotta work out for it.)

They say come what may

2011-09-18T15:00:00.001+08:00

Maybe it's all for the best,
But I just don't see any good in this, no.
Maybe we'll find something better,
But the lovers that leave us,
Will always hold the place.

Maybe it was wrong of me to think I could keep you,
And maybe it's the last few drinks,
Taking over my mouth and all I've been thinking,
I want you to know that I am fine here without you,
But I can't bring myself to lie to you.
And since we're being honest, I feel I should tell you,
I've been filling up the empty space between you and I.

And in the end, she's gotta give him up.

Promote

2011-09-18T03:12:00.000+08:00

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Cheer #16

2011-09-18T00:30:00.000+08:00

16. Why you love cheer

Because of so many reasons, few out of the thousands are:
- It is an amazing sport.
- Fun and lets you work out at the same time.
- The teamwork and bond you make with your squad.
- Teaches you a few important things in life, eg being confident.
- We work hard for something that we want.
- It's the joy when you get when you hit a stunt/pyramid right.

I'll kill you with my katana first

2011-09-17T04:19:00.000+08:00

So recently my dad went to Japan for a business trip for a week.

I sent him off at the airport and he's back today! No, I didn't pick him up though.

Was at Nic's birthday dinner at The Manhattan Fish Market, Pyramid.

Had a great dinner, camwhore sesh and girlie times with the rest (:

After that, joined Leysha, Ali and their coursemate at a Malaysia Day event at Bangsar.

Some performances, watched them have dinner at Nirvana, then off for some pool.

Chilled and had 'small talk' at Padang Kota after that till pretty late.

We didn't realize the time, cause we were having fun talking about random things.

Very random things I would say, but interesting at the same time.

When I got back, I found this paperbag on the bed! :DD

Of course, it's from the DADDY! Guess what he got for me. Hehe.

A g-shock watch.

And a KIMONO! HEHEHEH :DD

Cheer #15

2011-09-17T03:37:00.003+08:00

15. How long have you been cheering

I've been cheering for 3 years plus now. (:

Cheer #14

2011-09-16T03:34:00.000+08:00

14. Who was your first cheer coach

First official cheer coach would be the one and only,

MAGDALENE THOMAS. (:

Cheer #13

2011-09-15T01:45:00.002+08:00

13. Your favorite celebrity cheerleader

Maddie Garner.

Or I would say girls from Flyers All Stars.

Feedback

2011-09-14T00:47:00.002+08:00

Okay, yes, I haven't been writing much other than the Cheer Challenge that has been going on.
So, here are a few updates in my life.

1. Depression ahead.
Yes, was being quite emotional beginning of last week till recently, but you know, life goes on and what goes around comes around. There's no use moping around wishing and thinking of all the 'what ifs' in life. So, I've decided to pick myself up and stand on my own two feet. Love yourself, when no one does, you still have yourself. (:

2. College.
As usual, classes, workload getting more and more, one project after another, trying to catch up all the time, but it's not too bad I guess. Recently did a business presentation about food shortage and I did a short documentary on live interviews, pretty happy with the outcome.

3. Honey Bee.
Been spending quite a lot of time with my sister since she's back, as you can see, I posted some pictures of us. Just like old times where we hang all the time. Love.

4. X-Men.
Not forgetting them, of course we still hang out and laugh about all the stupid and interesting things in life. Ahh, gotta love em. (': Our usual safa sesh, or mcd assignment times, or even foos and pool at Sportsville.

5. I'm inspired.
I have a few ideas of pictures and videos about some stuff, hopefully I've got time for that, and when it's done, I will definitely post it up! Can't wait! :DD And, next month, my house is undergoing some small renovations and paint jobs, after that I will decorate my room! Ehehe, time to get a little artsy fartsy.

Cheer #12

2011-09-14T00:37:00.001+08:00

12. Your favorite cheer movie

I love all the 'Bring It On', but Bring It On: All or Nothing is still the best!
But! On the other hand, I gotta love the guy flick, Fired Up as well. :P

Cheer #11

2011-09-13T02:58:00.003+08:00

11. Your proudest moment in cheer

When I got to wear any of my uniforms for both the teams. (:

Cheer #10

2011-09-12T02:23:00.003+08:00

10. Your cheer pet peeve

Not cutting your nails
Not tying your hair
Not paying attention to the coach

So easily

2011-09-12T02:22:00.000+08:00

At IGEM 2011.

I have to work harder to achieve all the things that I want in life.

ArchiTORTURE is not easy, and yes, be amazed that, that's the course I'm studying.

Ashes and Wine

2011-09-11T02:30:00.000+08:00

Don't expect anything of me,

Don't regret all you've done,

Stop looking at me and start to see,

That i'm just a girl,

A girl who used to love.

And when I doubt myself in everything I do,

When I don't believe in everything I love,

I stop. Rethink all that I've done, all the reasons and excuses.

All that I try not to be, when I avoid being... myself?

Perhaps, I am my own nightmare.

Had a great night with the sister after a long week. A long difficult week.

Played some pool, had some drinks and loads of fun. (:

Cheer #9

2011-09-11T02:21:00.001+08:00

9. List any cheer injuries

No major injuries. Thank god!
Just some muscle sprains, nail cuts and LOAD of bruises. Haha.

Cheer #8

2011-09-10T03:07:00.002+08:00

8. What’s positions you have held in a stunt group

Flyer, Base then Spotter as I grew up. Haha :DD

Cheer #7

2011-09-09T05:03:00.001+08:00

7. Your favorite cheer saying

People dream about success everyday, us cheerleaders go out there and get it!

I want you to take over control

2011-09-08T02:00:00.001+08:00

So what if I'm a little weird, a little random and like 'to-do-list's.

I guess, that makes that, ME.

And if you don't love me for who I am then, I'm sorry for your loss.

Some girls are bitches so the won't get hurt.

Some girls are bitches because they got hurt.

I think us girls like to use these reasons/excuses when it comes to love.

Oh, we've been hurt too many times, we're sick of everything.

We don't believe in love anymore because it's never been good to me.

Why can't we just admit it, WE'RE AFRAID.

Pumped up kicks

2011-09-08T01:50:00.001+08:00

Pretty little lady with your swollen eyes would you show them to me?

I know I'm not that perfect, but just stay a while, baby then you will see.

This is my "superadorable" sister, Lu Wen, aka Honey. :DD

We like to doll up and goof around. Loads of fun. (:

Cheer #6

2011-09-08T01:40:00.000+08:00

6. Your favorite jump

I think it would be a classic toetouch, but I quite like herkies too. :DD

Cheer #5

2011-09-07T10:21:00.003+08:00

5. Your favorite stunt

I think I like to backspot a full up, double down or a switch tick, double down.

And, I like to base tosses, yeah, Love.

Fly me to the moon

2011-09-07T10:19:00.000+08:00

There is only so much you can do before you realize you just need to let go and not let it bother you anymore — Tumblr

So I've been spending time with ze sistah since she's back from the foreign land.

And, yeah. September haven't been very nice to me, but you know, coping.

I swear, I do not want to sound dramatically depressing and dead either. Trust me.

Cheer #4

2011-09-06T10:07:00.000+08:00

4. Write about your squad members

We are like a family. Period.

Cheer #3

2011-09-05T02:32:00.002+08:00

3. Your squad’s name, colors, and mascot (optional)

Electric.
Green, black, and white.

CHARM
Red, blue and white.

Just run away from these lies

2011-09-04T16:08:00.001+08:00

I swear this is all painful and hurtful for anybody. Anybody.

And everytime somebody says, "Honestly, if he loves you, he'll be with you right now."

I just don't want to believe so, I'm sure he has his reasons and I screwed it up.

So question is, is it worth it that I'm beating myself up inside? Is it?

Or when people say, "If he doesn't want you then screw him, you've got better choices."

Yes, maybe I've got better choices but I choose him. I chose, him.

For once, I would like to stick to my decision for as long as my mind says yes.

I know I'm not a person in position to promise him anything, I'm a let down.

That's why, I back him each time people say things like that, cause I would say it's my fault.

But, is it? Or am I just lying to myself again and again so it would seem better?

It's never about another girl, yes, I can be jealous, but that would never be the reason.

And now, the worst part is I don't know if he's even trying anymore,

It hurts to know if I'm the only that's still fighting for this, I actually feel stupid.

Like a stupid hopeless romantic sucker for love idiot. I vowed never to be that person again.

Now, guess what? I think I've became my own nightmare.

"He is worth it." It keeps running through my head. Even in my sleep.

What have I become?

Songs that make sense to me now:

1. Miserable at best - Mayday Parade

2. Tonight - FM Static

3. Bubblewrap - Mcfly

4. How much it hurts - Just Off Turner

5. Make up smeared eyes - Automatic Loveletter

6. Slow dancing in a burning room - John Mayer

I'm not even sure if he still cares to read all these anymore. He used to.

You don't know how much I want to;

hold your hand,

kiss you,

and hug you.

You don't know.

Cheer #2

2011-09-04T15:51:00.000+08:00

2. Reason when & why you started cheering

I started cheerleading back in 2006. Well, that wasn't exactly cheer anyways.
That was a house team for my school sport's day, more of cheer dance actually.
I had that for 2 years till they disbanded cheerleading in my school :(
I was really interested in it, so I decided to join CHARM in 2008.
That's when the real competitive cheerleading started.
So, technically, I started cheerleading in mid year 2008, I've been cheering for 3 years.

I love cheerleading cause it's such an exciting and adventurous sport.
It's all about the teamwork. I love the torturing sore after practices. :B
And of course, gotta love the uniform, make up and fun times :D

Cheer #1

2011-09-03T17:05:00.003+08:00

1. Post a picture of yourself in your uniform

I've got a few uniforms, so I've decided to post all three! :D

CHARM uniform, I'm the top right one on the thigh stand. For Earth Hour 2009.

I'm on the right. My 2009 Electric uniform during the 'Levis Flash Mob'.

Another Electric uniform for year 2010. My last year with that team. During Cheer Nationals.

Like a BOSS

2011-09-03T16:53:00.000+08:00

So, today, dropped by college in the afternoon to pass Aaron some stuff,

Then for lunch, met up with Wei Lik for IKEA MEATBALLS. Nom nom nom.

Haven't had em in quite awhile, and by quite awhile, I mean, 2-3 months? Yeah.

Bought myself some hairties since I'm always running out on them.

And some pretty rings :B

An owl and an elephant! Only for RM10 each at IPC.

Later tonight, going over to Leysha's place for Raya open house, AYAM GOLEK!

Then, hopefully watching a movie with the bunch. :D

Cheer challenge!

2011-09-03T14:38:00.000+08:00

1. Post a picture of yourself in your uniform

2. Reason when & why you started cheering

3 Your squad’s name, colors, and mascot (optional)

4. Write about your squad members

5. Your favorite stunt

6. Your favorite jump

7. Your favorite cheer saying

8. What’s positions you have held in a stunt group

9. List any cheer injuries

10. Your cheer pet peeve

11. Your proudest moment in cheer

12. Your favorite cheer movie

13. Your favorite celebrity cheerleader

14. Who was your first cheer coach

15. How long have you been cheering

16. Why you love cheer

#10

2011-09-03T00:03:00.000+08:00

Day 10 - One confession.

I never really know what I'm doing in my life, what's my purpose, what are my intentions, and what I want. So if you ever ask me one of those questions, I would honestly tell you, "I don't know." Well, at least that's for now till I do some self-discovery. I'm not trying to be secretive or rude, but I really don't know. Just sayin. (:

#9

2011-09-02T00:30:00.001+08:00

Day 9 - Two smiley that describe your life right now.

(: - I am currently pretty contented with life. Most of the things are going my way and how it's suppose to. So, yay me (:

:/ - On the contrary, certain things are slightly disappointing. The worst part is, I don't know what's going on, and not that it's horrible, it's just that I don't know what the hell is going on. That frustrates me the most. And maybe some other stuff that doesn't live up to my expectation. :/

Balloons

2011-09-01T16:10:00.000+08:00

I couldn't sleep yesterday night till almost 6 am rolling around in the bed.
Was suppose to sleep around 4, ended up reading up on interesting topics. :D
Read "72 signs on doom's day by the Islam" and "Typical Malaysian Jokes."
Haha, felt quite retarded laughing by myself while rolling around in bed.
Oh well, time well spent though.

Gotta go to college later to finish up my cnc project.
Hopefully I can take some nice pictures to draw to finish up my 6 sketches.
And I wonder if the library is open... Hmm, if it is then I can print something.
Oh! and I must say, the new blogger layout is pretty and professional. Nais.
Also, gotta go buy some stationery later, eheheh, I love stationery shopping.

Jagger

2011-09-01T01:25:00.003+08:00

Sorry peeps, but I didn't feel like bringing my camera out the other night.

So, no pictures to document it, but it's definitely in my head. (:

Had a great dinner, awesome food, nice family time and funny conversations. (Y)

I've always had these 2 dilemmas for my hair:

1. Should I curl it?

Yes, I think that some girls with straight hair wants to curl it and some girls with curly hair wants to straighten it. Ah well, we always want what we can't get ay. But I'm scared that it'll spoil my hair. Plus, I can't do it now, just chopped my hair shoulder-lengthish. Not good for curling.

2. Should I colour my hair?

I mean, I've tried highlighting a few streaks and all that, no harm done, but what about whole head. Hmm, I've always wanted auburn or like maroon-ish colours, and again, question is will it spoil my hair? :O Some says yes, and some says no.

#8

2011-09-01T00:07:00.000+08:00

Day 8 - Three turn ons.

1. Great body. (;

2. Intelligent. Not book smart, but general knowledge and charm. I like a guy that can actually hold a good conversation and not talk about utter bull.

3. Eyes. It's the eyes. Eyes are windows to your souls. Haha, but seriously, eyes. :D

Ice Cream Cheerleading Stunt

2011-08-31T09:03:00.000+08:00

#7

2011-08-31T00:11:00.000+08:00

Day 7 - Four turn offs.

I think I've mention this before. I shall again.

1. Bad grammar

2. Fake

3. Doesn't love himself

4. Childish

I am a superhero.

2011-08-30T02:22:00.002+08:00

Ahh, fun times. :D

Updates:

1. Busy with college work. Not so much of a holiday anyways :(

2. Been addicted to Sims3 since I got it working in my laptop. Hehe :D

3. Trimmed my hair and got myself a pretty bow.

4. Family dinner tomorrow, so I get to doll up and do expect pictures (:

5. It's ze holidays, loving the fact that I get to spend more time with the daddy. :D

#6

2011-08-30T00:03:00.000+08:00

Day 6 - Five people who mean a lot.

1. My daddy. Definitely. Yes, I'm a daddy's girl. No, it doesn't make me spoilt!

2. Family members.

3. My beshfwens, and X-Men.

4. Unicorn. (Yes, it's a person. Only she will understand :O)

5. For now, you do mean a lot to me.

#5

2011-08-29T00:08:00.002+08:00

Day 5 - Six things you wish you'd never done.

1. I wish I didn't stop piano. I stopped at grade 7 and now I don't have the time to finish it. I feel that it's such a waste. :/

2. I shouldn't have slacked so much during SPM. I know I could've done wayyy better than what I did.

3. I should've paid more attention last sem. It's okay, I'll be better this sem to cover up for the last one. And I shall be awesome in degree years.

4. I should have finished ballet. Now I'm regretting for being so un-flexible and un-graceful. :(

5. I regret eating those suppers for the last 16 months or so. I don't anymore, so yay. :D

6. I shouldn't have let you down. Again.

Ma new bow :P

2011-08-28T03:21:00.001+08:00

I still smile on the outside

Beggin'

2011-08-28T03:03:00.002+08:00

Would you lay with me and just forget the world?
Please do not prove my doubts right. Please.

#4

2011-08-28T00:59:00.003+08:00

Day 4 - Seven things that cross your mind a lot.

1. My evergoing repeating to-do-list in my head. I swear. It repeats itself and I get really happy when I can cross out something in it.

2. I'm hungry. No wait, I'm just craving for something. Yeap. Should I eat? Nah...

3. What am I going to do next? I lay out a virtual schedule in my head. Yes I am a perfectionist. Lol!

4. Him.

5. Do not slap him/her even though how annoying he/she might be. Control yourself, you're just pissy now.

6. Wow, that guy is quite cute.

7. That top/skirt/dress is really cute. Hmm, I should get something like that.

Paper hearts

2011-08-27T21:05:00.002+08:00

You can take everything I have,
You can break everything I am,
Like I'm made of glass,
Like I'm made of paper,
Go on and try to tear me down,
I will be rising from the ground,
Like a skyscraper, like a skyscraper.

Screwyouall. (:

My heart

2011-08-26T03:49:00.002+08:00

This heart, it beats, beats for only you,

My heart, is yours.

I hate myself for being so fickle. Really.

One moment I'm thinking to myself, "Screw you, if you don't want this, then forget it."

That's when I'm oh-so-confident about myself. Especially during the day.

That's also when I think, "Yeah, I should really stay guy-free for awhile, till next year?"

Of course, later, when I'm not so busy with other things, like night time,

Or when I'm just bored, or just staring into space, I start to think.

"But I do really like him, what if he is THE ONE. I should fight for this."

And i'll most probably sleep on that thought, when I wake up the next day,

Yes, you've guessed it, process repeats. Agh, it is NOT fun I'm telling you. Not.Fun.

#3

2011-08-26T03:48:00.002+08:00

Day 3 - Eight ways to win your heart.

1. Humour me. Please please please, have a sense of humour or Imma beat you up. :P

2. Love me for who I am. Don't try to change me, for I will not change myself for you. Unless the reason is very very good. Did I mention, very? Yeah.

3. Be yourself. Don't fake up a different personality just to impress me whatsoever. If I like you, I will like everything you are. Even your flaws. Everyone has flaws.

4. Care about me. Let me say this, there is a very fine line between caring and overprotective. Make sure you don't go all psycho-killer on me. Don't ask me 24/7 where I am, who I'm with, what I can or can't do. I am not a child anymore, so don't treat me like I'm one.

5. Feed me. Enough said.

6. Let me meet your friends. Sometimes, certain people are a whole different person when they are with their friends, like their social identities. I would like to know that. And, somewhat, a person's character can be judged through their friends as well. Things I don't know about you.

7. Don't be shy. Be adventurous and spontaneous. I mean, sometimes, when a guy is shy, or blushing when his friend is teasing him about me, it's cute. That's fine, but to a certain extend. I like adventurous people. Try new things, not the same ol same ol, movies and dinner.

8. Do not show PDA. I'm okay with holding hands, and pecks. Nothing more than that in the public. Thank you.

#2

2011-08-25T00:52:00.003+08:00

Day 2 - Nine things about yourself.

1. I am not loveydovey, which comes of as me, being insensitive, or a plain btch. I don't have the habit of hugging people or random 'I love you's. I like to mean what I say. Isn't that what we're all suppose to do anyways? I will only be at least, slightly loveydovey with you if I've known you long enough or I really like you. For example, if it's just the first 2-3 months of a relationship, you will NEVER hear me say, 'I miss you' and definitely not, 'I love you'. If you tell me those phrases, you'd most probably get ignored or I'd say "Awww."

2. I don't get close/trust anyone easily. If I don't know you well enough, I sure as hell won't trust you. Isn't that common sense? How would you know what kind of person he/she is. Maybe the person is nice to you for an ulterior motive? Or it's still a fresh friendship, his/her true colours are not out yet. So, I'm pretty careful with what I say to who.

3. I definitely don't fall in love easily. At some points, yes maybe I THINK that I'm in love, but my brain is just going, NO, YOU'RE NOT. I guess I listen to my brain a lot than my heart. Yeap, that's for sure. It's like, certain days I'll wake up and go, "Wow, I think I've fallen with him.". Then the next day, "Ugh, he's so annoying. Why is he sending me these corny texts.". It's somehow my mindset that I won't fall in love, sometimes good, but of course, sometimes bad. You have no idea how many chances I missed cause I told myself that that wasn't "IT". Not "the one" and all the other bullcraps. Out of the gazillion possibilities, if I do fall in love, I'd take forever to get out of it and I think that only happened... once. So far.

4. I am a Gemini. A June Gemini. Yes, I believe in horoscopes and their predictions cause so far, it's 90% true either way. Especially personality wise and love compatibility. So, for more information about me, you may ask Uncle Google about Gemini characteristics.

5. I LOVE food. I swear, love is actually an understatement. Food is everything to me! I won't go on a food diet where you can't eat the whole day, NEVER. Reducing and eating the right amount is already a torture for me. I used to be really really thin, thank god for the high metabolism rate and sports. But now, I rarely work out anymore, but still eating the same amount of food, so imagine how much weight I've gained since. :O Oh well, I will still love you, no matter what. (':

6. I am in decisive. Wait, I mean, I'm VERY indecisive. I can change my mind in a split second for no apparent reason then change it back again the next minute. Unless you give me a very concrete proof, fact or evidence, I will keep on changing my mind in my head.

7. I THINK I quite like the colour blue, but then again, I don't really have a favourite colour. I mean, I guess, I prefer blue to the rest, but I don't mind black, or grey either. Or red, or green. Ahh, you get me. But for clothing wise, I don't really like white, yellow or brown. White because I'm too clumsy to keep it clean or not thin enough. Yellow and brown makes me look pale and dark. Nope. Not a good thing.

8. I don't really fancy flowers and plants. I don't mind getting a bouquet of flowers, really, but not crazy for it. I just find flowers really scary. Cause it's a living thing, it grows, and its soft and ticklish. I don't know, I just can't touch it. And I hate walking on tall grasses. It just creeps the hell outta me thinking what maybe beneath it. Don't you think so? No?

9. Like other girls, I like taking pictures of myself. Pretty pictures of course :P

#1

2011-08-24T00:25:00.002+08:00

Day 1 -Ten things you wanna say to ten different people.

1. Well, I'm not doing this in any particular order, but you just seem to be on top of my mind at the moment. Ahh, this shows how much I think about things when I've got nothing better to do. Let's see, I haven't known you for a long time, definitely less than a year but we've grown really close to each other since I met you. The term 'friends' obviously can't be used to describe our relationship. All the ups and downs we've been through, and I guess, there is still somewhat hope for this to continue. At least I hope so. Things aren't very smooth for us now, but hopefully it'll come around soon. I really like that fact that how we've got nothing much in common, yet how much we've fallen for each other.

2. My two best buds since forevah. I'm sure you know who you are. These 5-11 years have been amazing for us. From all the ridiculous drama we've been through as a group and ending up with us only. It's fun to see how far we've been. At times, we've got our differences and 'hormonal imbalance' situations where we get pissed, but in the end, it's all good. Ain't it? We'll just resort to "She's like that." It shows how much we understand each other instead of 'tolerating' each other. Even though we're in college now, I thought we wouldn't be as close in the beginning, but we still are as strong as always. To 5 years and counting!

3. I kinda have the hots for you, but definitely do not see us in a relationship in the future. Duh. So. not. gonna. work. out. Haha. But yeah, I guess you've got the charm in you that you think it's so absofckiglutely great and it somewhat makes you arrogant. Can't deny that you're one arrogant biatch, but two can play this game.

4. Recently, I feel that we've been drifting apart, I don't know if I'm just being extra sensitive about stuff or it's somewhat the truth. It's like, most of the time I don't feel included in your conversations. Those 'inside secrets' that people seem to know except for me. Then, you'll feel like you're obligated to tell me, and yet still reluctant to say something. Oh well, I mean, there's nothing much that I can do about it, is there?

5. Forever X-Men. Enough said. (Yes including the pikachuwatchmodelinhongkong)

6. I do not feel anything anymore whatsoever when I see your picture, or talk to you or even see you. Which is a good thing, for me, that is. It feels like such a relieve actually. After a year plus?

7. I'm sorry that I've hurt you, I know I did. Plus the fact that till today you don't know the full reason for the actions that I've did. I'm sure you know partly why I was being mean and ignorant towards you at that moment, but you still don't know the rest which is kinda the main part. I'm sorry I didn't tell you earlier, but I guess it's just not that easy to explain something to anyone, for me. After awhile of not hanging out, I guess now we are getting closer as friends, which is great. You're a great company and friend. Maybe just not more than that, or it was just wrong timing in the first place. I'm sure you'll find someone awesome. (:

8. I've known you for quite awhile already I would say, 3 years? That's a long time for a friend that I've met from scratch. Like, total strangers to almost lovers at one part and now, friends. I'm actually glad I've met you and spent loads of time with you at one point. Am I still somehow the only girl that is your friend that you're not dating now? Haha. I hope so, it somehow makes me feel special? So, to our friendship.

9. Okay, this, I honestly do not know what in the mortal world happened between us. We were close, then enemies, then close again and now? What are we? And the thing is we haven't got the chance to talk about the problem we had, but still, why the sudden dissociation? It's so sudden, that I honestly do not know why or what I did to cause this. :/ Hopefully we can sort this out.

10. I guess now we're quite mutual with each other, or at least I don't feel like killing you when I see you or beating you up when I hear your voice. :D Mutual is a very good state I'm telling you. Especially for after what you did and what kind of person you are, even now, I think you still haven't change. You haven't change your principles in life which are really important, you may change the way you treat me, but definitely not yourself in general.

10 day challenge

2011-08-24T00:16:00.000+08:00

Another 10 day challenge to keep my blog alive. Some sort (:

Day 1 -Ten things you wanna say to ten different people.
Day 2 - Nine things about yourself.
Day 3 - Eight ways to win your heart.
Day 4 - Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day 5 - Six things you wish you'd never done.
Day 6 - Five people who mean a lot.
Day 7 - Four turn offs.
Day 8 - Three turn ons.
Day 9 - Two smiley that describe your life right now.
Day 10 - One confession.

Day 15

2011-08-23T00:30:00.000+08:00

Day 15 – What are five things people don’t know about you?

Hmm, 5 things strangers wouldn't guess about me then:

1. I'm studying architecture. (People like to guess that I'm doing mass comm or something to do with pr.)
2. I have scoliosis. (It is not that obvious. Unless you have it yourself, or you will realise only after I've told you.)
3. I have tiny strips of red highlights. (People just don't pay attention to small details I guess.)
4. I am super random and friendly. :D (Cause sometimes apparently I might come of as cocky)
5. I am/was a cheerleader. (Really? I don't come off as one? Hmm, I will take that as a compliment I guess.)

Day 14

2011-08-22T00:09:00.000+08:00

Day 14 – Would you want to be famous? Why or why not?

Yes! Of course I want to be famous one day.
Famous for something good, not bad of course. :D
Well, question is, why wouldn't anyone want to be famous?
And I want to be remembered of especially when I'm already gone,
Being famous accomplishes that.

Day 13

2011-08-21T00:02:00.001+08:00

Day 13 – Are you a morning or night person?

I'm DEFINITELY a night person. No doubts. Haha.
I am some sort of a bat, but cause of college, I gotta get up early.
Which I really dread to do every morning. :/
In the holidays, I actually missed all the sunlights. Haha.

Is it?

2011-08-20T17:07:00.002+08:00

As of today, is it the end of a 16 weeks journey?

From the first time you laid eyes on me differently,

First time you held my hands like I was yours to keep,

First time you kissed me as the sign of a new beginning after a horrible patch,

First time I was in your arms,

And all the times that we made fun of each other.

Is this the end? I'm sure you're asking the same question.

So, I thought to myself, tracking back to the first time(s).

I never knew that it would last this long, but it did.

Then some unwanted things happen,

I never knew that you would take me back, but you did. Somehow.

And now, it's fading once again.

Is this now the end of the end?

It's not meant to be.

You're better off without me.

You'll find someone better than me.

If we're meant to be, it'll come around.

I'm not good enough for you.

I know, you and I don't want all these kind of answers anymore.

But, the question now is, what are the answers we're looking for? I'm looking for.

Is it why this is ending, or how can we make it happen again.

Ahh, too many questions, too little time.

I guess I just have to wake up and get out of my little fairy tale life.

Things that drives me up the wall

2011-08-20T13:33:00.001+08:00

1. I find it really rude and annoying when you don't silent your phone in certain places. Places like, college in a class, church, or movies and so on.

It's like, can't you respect the others in the class? I always silent my phone once I reach college, even out of the class. I don't expect you to do that, but in class, especially class compared to lectures, yes I expect so. And if it's the first class of the day, still kinda tolerable, cause maybe you forgot to silent it, but if it's classes after that, it's kinda rude.
Yeah. In movies, you're not even suppose to talk on the phone. There's a thing called texting or call them back when you're done.

2. Do not, I repeat, do not drive like a fcktard.

What I mean by a fcktard:

If you want to speed, go ahead, I'm not stopping you. I will cut to the left, but patience, don't fcking highlight me like a bitch after I've signaled left. OR it's in a jam, why do you want to overtake when you can go no where further? Geez, calm 'em tities man.
If you want to overtake like a retard, it's not as bad as when you don't put your signal lights. It gets really annoying cause how would I know you want to cut to my lane? Especially when I'm so close to the car in front of me, you still want to squeeze in at a fast speed WITHOUT signals. Really? You're getting on my nerves.
In a jam at a traffic light, do not try to queue at the back of the cars when obviously they're not moving and when the light turns red, you WILL block the whole damn road. Seriously! Do you not have any brains in that head of yours, you can see that the cars are not moving due to something, I don't know whatever it can be, so don't try to block other people from another side.

3. When you don't listen.

To someone when it's important. Then later when they're done, you ask me a million questions that could have been answered if you actually paid attention just now.

When you asked me something, I explained in detail, THEN, you say, "What? Sorry I wasn't concentrating." Wtf. If you don't want to listen, or busy doing something else, dont' ask me to explain to you right now, you can ask me later when you actually want to listen to me.

4. You ask me for MY opinion on something, then you screw me up later for it or not put it into consideration at all.

First of all, YOU are the one who's asking for my opinion. Not that I'd rudely interrupted your amazing speech of your own point of view. You asked. So, I give you an honest answer of what I think of it. Then, you turn on your 'judgemental' mode and give me all kinds of shit. Judging and commenting on my point of view. There's no wrong or right in a person's views. Oh! And discussing about my point of view with actual facts with a non-defensive mode is fine. I'm okay with that. Maybe after what you've told me, I realise that I was wrong. Why not. But DO NOT shoot at me.
When you need an opinion in a decision of some sort, so you came to me. I will just give you my opinion, but you don't have to necessarily follow what I said. But I mean, what's the point when you ask, then as if you're not even listening, continue with your own decision. Why ask in the first place? You can just do it your own way. No?

5. If you have a problem with me, just tell me, or talk to me about it. There's no point going through all the hassle so that the gossip can come back to me.

You don't have to post it all over the cyber world about who you think I am. Or criticising me when you don't even know me or the reason to my certain actions.
You don't have to spread rumours or gossip about me to my friends or my circle of friends. Cause, trust me, it'll come back to me even though you've said "Oh, please don't tell her."
You don't have to go through all the hassle of that, and STILL pretend that everything is okay in front of me, being overly nice to me. Seriously, save it.

Day 12

2011-08-20T00:05:00.000+08:00

Day 12 – Who do you live with?

I live with my family, dad, and my dad's mum. :D

Day 11

2011-08-19T00:09:00.000+08:00

Day 11 – How many languages do you speak? What are they?

I speak... 5 languages in total.
English, Malay, Hokkien, Mandarin and Cantonese. :D
I feel pro right now, do not, I repeat DO NOT pop my bubble.
Fanks.

Day 10

2011-08-18T00:05:00.000+08:00

Day 10 – Do you have a religion? What is it?

I'm a born buddhist, well, my family is buddhist.
I believe in certain parts of the buddhist teaching. I do.
But I also believe in science and evolution.
Yeah, pretty contradicting, but whatever that makes sense to me.

Electric Feel

2011-08-17T19:06:00.002+08:00

Am I selfish, manipulative, mean, irresponsible, disrespectful, fickled and naive?

Or, am I kind, trustworthy, intelligent, witty, charming, fun and versatile?

The big question of 'Who am I?'

Have you ever wondered?

Maybe I am what I think I am, because, my actions seems to say so.

Am I just being selfish for doing things only to my own advantage?

Did I manipulate others so I can get what I want, and throw them away when I'm done?

Or I'm mean because I couldn't care less about certain things, especially feelings.

I might be irresponsible for not finishing up whatever I've started.

Am I disrespecting others? Not treating them nicely all the time?

Or am I being a bad person for having a fickle mind? That I can't decide at all.

OR maybe all of these are under a big branch of me being naive.

It may be true, or not, but not all things are as we perceive them to be.

So, don't judge me, you're not God. I'm sorry.

I'm not perfect, I'm not God either.

Verisimilitude

2011-08-17T12:33:00.000+08:00

Day 9

2011-08-17T00:11:00.000+08:00

Day 9 – What are your hobbies?

Hmm... what are my hobbies.
I guess they are, sports, art and food!
Oh, I left out, snoozing. Haha, I loveee sleep.
Yes, I may sound exactly like a pig at this moment,
But who cares? I'm sure everyone loves to sleep. :B

Day 8

2011-08-16T00:01:00.002+08:00

Day 8 – How old are you? Do you like being the age you are?

I just turned 18 this year recently.
Yes, I love being 18, it is somehow the peak of my teenage life.
College started, being able to drive and being legal.
I would like to stay this age forever if I could, but I can't.
So, I shall just enjoy it while I can. (Rest of the year)
I wanna be the female version of Peterpan, never grow up. :D
Maybe when I was younger I'd always wanted to grow up fast. Now, no.

In for the thrill

2011-08-15T02:05:00.002+08:00

I could watch you for a lifetime
You’re my favourite movie
A thousand endings
You mean everything to me
I never know what’s coming
Forever fascinated
Hope you don’t stop running
To me cause I’ll always be waiting

You are A cinema I could watch you forever
Action Thriller I could watch you forever
You are A Cinema A Hollywood treasure
Love you Just the way you are

Sometimes, I miss you,

And again, sometimes, I don't.

Day 7

2011-08-15T00:19:00.000+08:00

Day 7 – Do you like sports? What are your favorite sport?

Yes, I love sports! Used to be really really active in sports.
Some sports in particular that I like are:

Cheerleading (Yes, cheerleading is a sport, it is THE sport, #1 sport.)
Dance
Marathons
Swimming
Badminton
A little bit of squash and basketball

There's no time for sleep

2011-08-14T01:13:00.001+08:00

And sometimes, I'm so envious of those people,
Those with their happy ever afters,
Those who got to be with their loved one,
And again, how would you know there weren't any rough parts.

I think to myself, I want to be wanted so much,
But yet I don't want to be owned.
I don't know how will that work, but yeah.
I haven't got the time to figure things out.

So, now and then I pretend that I'm contented with life. (:

Ashley's Surprise Birthday Lunch

2011-08-14T01:07:00.006+08:00

Yee Lin organised a surprise birthday lunch for Ash,

She invited us all the highschool friends for a small reunion.

Ashley, the birthday girl!

It was a Canon vs Nikon picture. Haha.

The rest of the group.

Her epic face.

Group pictures!

Ashley, "promoting" her birthday gift from bodyshop.

And again, Imma end the post with a picture of yours truly and Ash.

Do the awkward smile!

Day 6

2011-08-14T00:07:00.000+08:00

Day 6 – What do you do in your free time?

Sorry, this term "free time" is not applicable to me right now.
Haha, well, okay, maybe once in a week or so I'll have free time.
Nowadays, I would go out with my bunch of friends,
Have some fun, take a night off from all my assignments.

formspring.me

2011-08-13T00:19:00.001+08:00

Ask me anything and everything people (: http://formspring.me/missadhd

Day 5

2011-08-13T00:05:00.000+08:00

Day 5 – Have you ever met a famous person? Who was it?

Hmm, come to think of it, I don't think I've even met a famous person.

Like any celebrity or band or any sort for meet and greets or upclose.

Nope, sadly, nope. Well, I'm not exactly a big fan of any particular person.

Maybe that's why.

The trip to ze art gallery!

2011-08-12T23:53:00.004+08:00

After class, Pinky and I went to pack up some food and chatime.

Headed over to Help University College to pass it to a friend.

Blackberry's gps is one the worst, but still got us there. :D

Then, headed towards Bangsar to an art gallery for our English project.

This place is recommended by our lecturer to come visit. So, there we were.

Valentine Willie Fine Art

1st Floor, Jalan Telawi 3,

Bangsar Baru, 59100,

Kuala Lumpur.

Opening hours:

Monday - Friday: 12noon to 8pm.

Saturdays. 12 noon to 6pm.

There will be an art exhibition titled 'Half full, half empty'.

From the 12th of August to 27th of August 2011.

Photography and paintings from the exhibition.

After that, we checked out 'F Block' and bought some stuff over there.

Haha, yes we happen to be girls, couldn't help it!

The price was pretty reasonable, but the sizes are quite petite.

Rushed back to my place just in time for Mcdonald's Mcvalue lunch.

Felt really guilty after lunch, but compensated with a small dinner and dance class.

I don't feel TOO guilty anymore. I can sleep in peace.

And as I've mentioned, I'm pretty piled up with my college work:

English: 1 essay and 1 group project.
Design Visualisation: About 14 sketches up to next week.
Culture & Civilisation: A graphical timeline and map of the Sumer.

Daily 3

2011-08-12T01:40:00.004+08:00

1. Timetable is effed up. Seriously the management is definitely making fun of us.

I'm starting to think they're trying to make our life miserable.

First, the timetable had a lot of clashes, then they changed it.

And guess what? Yes, they're changing it again, to, Idontknowwhat. -.-

2. The work is piling up! It's not that I'm not hardworking or don't do my work.

It's just that DV is really taking up my time. It's true, it's a monster. Yeap.

I did my dv sketches, but they're not up to standard, so have to redo.

The rest is still not too bad I guess, especially EPC, Social Psychology and Business.

It's just a weekly class assignment, and it's not too hard if you pay attention in class.

English is loading us up with loads of essays and class assignment though.

3. There'll be class trips during activity week in October. Woot woot.

The choices now are either Cambodia for Culture & Civilisation or HKMacau.

I would actually prefer going to Cambodia cause at least you get to see Angkor Wat.

But all my friends prefer going to HK & Macau. :/ Hmm, I'm still undecided I guess.

Day 4

2011-08-12T01:38:00.000+08:00

Day 4 – Where do you live? Have you ever lived in another country from where you do currently?

I am currently living in Damansara, Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia.

I have never lived permanently in another country, although I wish I did.

Oh well, I would really love to experience living in another country.

I think my time will come. Soon enough. Soon. :D

Move along

2011-08-11T01:04:00.002+08:00

People love, people let go.

And apparently it's all planned by "fate".

Or we'll just have to follow our destiny.

People let go, and sometimes, people love again.

Destiny? Do we just wait for things to happen?

I say, if you want it, go out there and get it.

If it's meant to be, it will fall in to place.

Let's just go with the flow. (Cause it sounds right.)

Really? If you don't even try to get to know me,

Doesn't it show that you couldn't care less?

Well, and again, who am I to comment on these kind of things.

Who am I to give my opinions on something that I often fail at.

Everything will be wrong, timing, the person, my decisions or thoughts.

People change.

That's for sure, I can't argue with that.

They could change for the better in your point or view, or not.

In a short period of time, a person can change.

Or maybe, you've changed, not necessarily it's the other person,

You may find the other person reacting differently to something,

Maybe you are over that phase, you stepped out and observed?

No one should be blamed for these kind of events.

If you don't like or is uncomfortable with the changes,

Then, let the person know and maybe some things can be worked out.

If not then, move on. (:

Move on.

2 words, most used by a teenage girl. Ever.

You tell yourself, you tell your best friends, you tell your partner.

It's so easy to say, yet, very hard to do.

You think you're over the person, until you meet again.

The way the person looks at you, talk to you, laughs with you and so on.

It just feels... different, if you have not moved on. Yet.

Day 3

2011-08-11T00:02:00.001+08:00

Day 3 – Do you like to cook? What’s your favorite food? Are you good at cooking?

I like to cook and I like to bake!

But, I rarely do so cause they things I cook only interest me, apparently.

Cause my family doesn't really like cakes and cookies, even italian nor western.

I still cook and bake, once in awhile, then take a few days to finish the food. :(

My favourite food would be, dairy products; cheese, milk, beef, butter...

Yeah I know you get what I mean! Haha :D

Hmm, last question, I am not too bad I would say. Edible and some better. :D

Epic day for Jeanny and Pei Wen

2011-08-10T23:43:00.003+08:00

So we came up with our own dictionary. And it's called,

SOTONG BALL!

(Long story to why we named it that, but soon, videos shall be posted!)

Words we have so far:

1. Oh my god.

2. What the fack.

The road of a potato casserole

2011-08-10T23:25:00.004+08:00

Here are the ingredients needed:

(excluding angelhair, mushroom soup & tomato paste.)

Potatoes, cheese, virgin oil, basil, italian herbs, garlic and onions.

Using the knife after godknows how long. About 8 months I think,

I made a mistake boiling em potatoes too long! :(

Layer em, and bake!

About an hour or so.

TADAAA~

Day 2

2011-08-10T13:49:00.001+08:00

Day 2 – Do you have any pets? If yes, what kinds, and what are their names? If not, why don’t you have any pets?

Currently, I don't have pets of my own, but my sisters have a dog.

And that stupid dog's name is Belle. Haha, we had another dog, Frisbee, but he's gone now.

Hmm, why don't I have pets, cause my grandmother is pretty much against it I guess.

Plus the fact that I don't think I will have the time to take care of it.

Day 1

2011-08-09T18:14:00.002+08:00

Day 1 – What is your name? Were you named after someone else? Do you like your name?

Pei Wen, but also known as Jolene or Jojo for short.

My given name by my parents is Pei Wen.

I'm not named after anyone, but it's suppose to mean beautiful cloud patterns.

A fortune teller gave my parents 5 names to choose from.

Apparently it was suppose to suit the date of birth and time.

As for Jolene, I gave myself that name when I was maybe.. 6? Haha.

Yes, I so happen to like that name, and so it goes. Don't ask me why. I don't know.

15 days challenge.

2011-08-09T02:53:00.002+08:00

Day 1 – What is your name? Were you named after someone else? Do you like your name?
Day 2 – Do you have any pets? If yes, what kinds, and what are their names? If not, why don’t you have any pets?
Day 3 – Do you like to cook? What’s your favorite food? Are you good at cooking?
Day 4 – Where do you live? Have you ever lived in another country from where you do currently?
Day 5 – Have you ever met a famous person? Who was it?
Day 6 – What do you do in your free time?
Day 7 – Do you like sports? What are your favorite sport?
Day 8 – How old are you? Do you like being the age you are?
Day 9 – What are your hobbies?
Day 10 – Do you have a religion? What is it?
Day 11 – How many languages do you speak? What are they?
Day 12 – Who do you live with?
Day 13 – Are you a morning or night person?
Day 14 – Would you want to be famous? Why or why not?
Day 15 – What are five things people don’t know about you?

A post taken from Michelle's blog. (:

Credits to: http://guardiangel10.blogspot.com/

Check her out, love reading her blog.

Jagger.

2011-08-09T02:02:00.004+08:00

A blog post since the last one, which is... almost 10 days ago?

Wow, this is pretty rare. Haha, compared to the period where I blogged a lot.

Okay, I don't have all the time in the world to blog now,

So I shall do the weekly 5 and maybe end it with some pictures.

1. College started. Therefore my life is kinda in a mess for a bit. Soon, I will settle down.

Loads of assignment, well compared to the previous sem, for sure.

And I'm DEFINITELY lacking social life. Not none at all, but not enough.

2. Lapsap pool anniversary was the BOMB! Awesome music and crowd. Partied all night long.

Well, not exactly all night long. Haha. It ended about 9ish, left around 10

Made my way down to KL and back without getting lost and without gps. Woot.

3. Leysha's Birthday. After lapsap, she went for dinner, so we all met up after that.

Most of the X-Men were there. Had fun at Beer Factory, Sunway Giza for some drinks.

Yana, their cousins and some other friends joined as well. Then slept over at Leysha's place.

We were all awake till about 7am? Haha, fun times, before college started, that is.

4. Currently using both my numbers, but I can whatsapp with my bb number now.

So, please whatsapp me if you need me, cause it's free! Haha, yes technology, you see.

My old number is still available for old-fashioned texting cause it's cheaper.

5. I'm not exactly looking forward to Raya Holidays. Partly cause I have to hand up sketches.

And! I don't think it'll be exactly "holidays" for me. Definitely a lot of work to touch up.

Oh well, at least I don't have to go to college I guess, that's the brighter side.

Here you have random pictures from the night at Giza.

Luke's attempt on photography.

Ali, being... Ali?

Luke being stupid, of course. :P

I am awesome like that. :D

Heh. :D

Vee and I.

Leysha and Vee.

And again, like the other times, I will end the post with a picture of,

Yours truly,

You know the drill, DO THE AWKWARD SMILE!

PS: I've got 1 more pending post, so hopefully I can update by tomorrow during my free time in college. Lots of love, xoxo.

All day

2011-08-01T00:28:00.002+08:00

Can I hold on to the end this time?

Tomorrow's the long awaited day that I go back to college.

I think I should be sleeping by now already, but nahhh, knowing me. Haha.

I will be sleeping soon, for sure, not 4 or 5 am like usual.

Burned a new cd to listen to in the car on the way to college.

Or not I might just fall asleep. Let's pray that doesn't happen.

First day of a new month, yes, hello August.

Let's make the rest of the year awesome and memorable. (:

Epic

2011-07-30T00:24:00.002+08:00

Okay, updates!

1. Yes, I lost my bb.

If you were trying to contact me through whatsapp or bbm, you can't.

Cause I recently lost my bb on my first day of work. Yes, sad. :(

But! You can still contact both my numbers cause I've retrieved the sim card.

I'm still considering whether to get a new phone or not.

Maybe not so soon. It's either wait for Blackberry 9900 or Iphone. Depends.

2. College starting on Monday!

Woot, after almost 2 months of bumming at home like an idiot,

It's time to go back to college, miss my friends and the college. :D

Then we can all have chicken supreme for breakfast and waffles for lunch. Lol!

The only part that I don't look forward to is driving and parking.

Plus the fact that they recently start charging for certain parking zones.

3. Lapsap Private Pool Party Anniversary

It's tomorrow and the x-men got invited. Woot! It's time to party!

Don't think I'll be bringing my dslr there, cause time will be wasted. Lol.

Nah, I just think that it's slightly troublesome taking care of it and stuff. Meh.

That is why I wanted a pocket camera, like G12. But nooo. -.- Self-note: Appreciate!

So, time to dust off the bikinis and put on a show tomorrow :P

Yeah, show my fats of got la. Haha. Hopefully it would be off the hook!

Talk the talk

2011-07-26T03:05:00.002+08:00

Gah, freaking exhausted from working 12 hours a day for 5 days.

But, I must say it was still fun and enjoyable.

Especially with my fellow colleagues and boss, trying to sell the products.

Haha, there are many memorable lines and things that happened.

It was a great experience and defintely good money.

Plus, our hard work paid off cause we hit the target for our sales! :D

All the ktm taking, long standing hours, aunties we try to impress. Haha.

One more week left of holidays before I start my second sem.

I'm actually excited to go back to college, cause I'm extremely bored now.

Well, I got bored after 2 weeks of holidays. I'd rather go to college. Meh.

The timetable is still not out though, hopefully it's not too packed.

This sem I have 6 core subjects, compared to last sem, 4 only.

Random, I feel like dressing up. But I got no where to go. Lol!

No worries, I WILL find an occasion to dress up to. Haha. :DD

Oh oh! And I got a pair of coloured contacts when I was working.

It's prettyyy, and no, I haven't lost the power of inserting it into my eye. Woot.

I've tried blue and grey before. This time I got dark green ones. Looks nice.

And I highlighted my hair slightly. It's red again, like the last time.

But at different area, so my old part is still slightly visible which is irritating.
I wish I can just colour that part black again. Hmm. Or just let it grow.