I know it's not your fault, or mine, it's just... That's the worst. That I can't do anything about it but sit here and cry. This is a cry of loneliness, expectations, disappointments, and pure helplessness. I don't want to tell you, I don't want to open up, there's no solution, nothing. I just don't want to feel this way anymore. Assume nothing or put my hopes up and bare the consequences of disappointment.